Ugly Inside

At the core of all anger is a need that is not being fulfilled - Marshall B. Rosenberg

It sucks that I've become short fused this week. Its not fair to me, its not fair to other people and most of all its not fair to life.

Sure there will always be things that will make us angry, but in the end; we need to take a breath in and we need to be the bigger person.

Maybe thats why we have a coworker that is so hell bent on making life miserable for everyone else.

I will be blunt, but who am I too say what beauty is; but DAMN

She looks like a frog, she has small jagged teeth, gorilla hands, walks loud and outward steps (if that makes sense), flat face, long black hair reminiscent of the girl from the grudge, looks like an elephant stepped on her face, she smells like shit, beady eyes that would make a charlie brown character jealous, she wears grandma clothes from the homeland, shes probably late 20s early 30s and an uber bitch.

Perfect recipe for unhappiness.

The first theory was she was trying to move up the "ladder" here at work by sabotaging and snitiching on everyone here. But maybe thats just how she is. She's so unhappy that she needs to make everyone around her also. Its really sad and unfortunate for her to always see the cup half empty.

Working with her makes me realize that I cannot always be angry at things out of my control. And besides that; who wants to be angry all the time?

I need to go back to the happiness and seeing the good in life. It just sucks that I spend 40 hours a week in this hell hole and need to SIT right next to Miss Negativity.

It would be bearable if I did not have to sit next to her, but man let me tell you. I get to hear her talk on the phone at least 5-8 times a day, about 10mins each conversation if not more EVERY SINGLE DAY. I was cool about it and not gonna say anything but not anymore. Especially with her trying to get people in trouble all the time; like keeping time logs of when X person gets out of their chair, or when X person is on the phone or when X person is mean to her back.

I'm telling you, she is the rudest of the rude. You can be cordial and say Hi, and she will either A)not acknowledge or B)pick up her mobile phone to pretend shes going to make a call. Other instances include her making a conversation with you and no joke; 2.5 mins later she is giving you the cold shoulder.

And then theres her taking home empty print cartridges and boxes for her own personal gain. Isn't that stealing?

I will give her credit on her attire. We have a dress code here, yet for a couple months she would come in wearing over sized Snoop Dogg tshirts/Oversized polo shirts and windbreaker pants. Hilarious but not cool, I got pulled aside one time because I wore a tshirt on a thursday (technically our Friday because of the Furloughs) and said I could not wear a tshirt because of "dress code". Yet she was able to coast for months wearing that ugly shit. She has been wearing more "work appropiate" attire now, even its still ugly as hell. Basically it looks like a 2 year old drew the print on her shirt. And she still smells like mothballs/fried fish. Not a good combo; trust me.

But what can you do, she is labeled by me at least as the aunt nobody wants to talk to or mention. She has been shunned, but its hard to shun somebody that has already shunned themselves. She brings it on herself to not to speak to anyone so why should I or anyone else make the effort. I guess it runs in the family (D.O) so its not suprising.

From here on out, nothing but positive and I just need to remember that its just work and no need to stress and go all out for this place. I'll put in my time and thats it.

Hopefully she'll realize what she is doing and needs to chan...naw nevermind she never will.